Wednesday, February 1, 2017

The Fog

Driving in the fog is like a trust building exercise.  You have to be cautious, alert, pay attention and then you have to trust.  Trust that the road is there, trust that a car or deer is not headed toward you and trust that it is safe to drive 25, 35, 55 or 75 mph. How crazy is this!? How come I can trust when I cannot see however I can become SO concerned, worked up, full of anxiety and blind over small unimportant daily things?  Why is it so hard for me to turn to God, pray and willingly give my worry or troubles to him? How is it that I can hop into the car and drive without concern when death is an imminent danger and possible outcome? But worry about what people think of me, how I look, if I am 'right' or if I am 'doing enough' trip me up again and again.

Let me say that I do pray for safety and protection when I drive, but not every time.  I don't have an answer for why I do this, besides possibly - I am human and a sinner. I am trying to repent from my worry so I may face the Lord and rest in his presence.  This does not mean it will be easy.  It does mean I will not be alone!  I am going to challenge myself to a trust experience.  I want to trust God to lead me.  I am going to prayerfully discern after prayerfully listening so that I may follow.  You see I have discovered that I am not called to be (and I do not want to be) a leader.  But I am called to be a follower.  I am a follower of Christ. 
Now I need to practice.

Mark 8:34 Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me."

John 12:26 Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

written and submitted by Jodie Wilson